December 9th 2010 - Traditions

I am realizing as we get closer to Christmas that it is time for me to start new traditions with my kidlets and let go of what used to be my traditions.

My grandmother and auntie are gone. They aren't coming back. It will never be like it was when I was kid. If my own family members cant stand to even be in a room with me for 1 day out of the year, I need to come to terms with that. It hurts. But I need to move on.

So I make new traditions. I am not the kid anymore. Christmas is not about ME. It's about my kids. And magic and giving and wonder.

So I hide a silly elf around the house each night. I bake with my kiddo and do crafts. We'll drive around to see Christmas lights. I'll be happy for all that I DO have and say good riddance to all that I don't have or to those that are so negative and hurtful.

Anyone who wouldn't want to see this happy face on Christmas because they are harboring a 17 year grudge is just crazy.